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♥ Saturday, July 31, 2010 im so damn tired today.. my supervisor said im so mean with her.. hahaha... no im not... she is just so demanding.. fucking irritating.. why always me.. there is other ppl in the department... there is more than 8... why must be me... its going to be my going home time.. she said she will mark me.. how do i care.. u are the one who is going up wat just now.. u nvr even ask me to go up... wth... always me... it doesnt mean im the youngest there u want me to do everything.... watever shit... tmr same shift with boifren.. yay so i will not bored..hehe haiz.... boifren was ok just now.. den suddenly... haiz... i dun want to talk abt it... he was ok earlier..but...suddenly... haiz zylaa sign off @Saturday, July 31, 2010 ♥ Friday, July 30, 2010 yay.. meet boifren just now after werk.. i feel so happy to meet him just now.. i miss him so much.. i feel like hugging and kissing him...but... since the day boifren told me something.. everything like different.. when we walk.. he dun let me touch him... i wanted to hold his hand but he didnt even let me too... is he training me on something?? or.. haiz..why cant this thing goes slowly? boifren told me that im being rude to him.. im not.. its onli that.. u always make me angry and heart pain.. u said this and that.. den.. it makes me said all those things.. if u didnt make me angry, i wont be like that.. u are the one who is always like being rude to me.. haiz... my hand is so painful.. boifren pinched me alot of times at the same spot...lucky nvr blueblack..hmm.. but.. why everything goes different? haiz.. zylaa sign off @Friday, July 30, 2010 ♥ i hate when this feeling comes.. haiz.. i dun like... hati sungguh tk sedap skali... knape ni... haiz... where is boifren.. i call.. i msg... but... whenvever he pick up.. he is like angry.. tk salah kn kalau call.. i onli call him about.. nearly 6 plus in the afternoon.. and after that i didnt even like call.. and i txt him like aft 7pm... i didnt respond to some of my msg and didnt even pick up my call... i call alot of time.. and he reject my calls.. i tot he was sleeping.. but he was not... he said he was talking to his uncle.. but... usually when he have conversation with his uncle.. he would like actually inform me or even reply my msgs.. he will at least tell me or talk to me.. but this time.. it was strange.. very strange.. haiz... first thing first i got shock to see those ppl that he added in his facebook.. im tired of nagging and nagging about it.. but still he said ok2 wont do it again... again he did it again.. i wonder does he noes what do i feel? some might be his frens.. but... haiz... must i nag again? i dun like when this things happen or boifren talk about gerls or clubbing when i was at werk.. i cant concentrate especially when its in a very high occupancy.. alot of calls.. alot of complains this and that.. haiz.. and if i didnt do things right... im the one who always get the scolding.. i dun liike this feeling... wat is boifren doing.. i dun feel good.. wat he say issit true?? now i got a msg from him he said that dun disturb him first..haiz.. wat is he doing? is he on the phone or wat.. it makes me want to msg him more or call him alot... he said he didnt online... but looking at my msn now.. he is online... which one is true?? i seriously dun like this feeling... i will be working morning tmr... boifren pls msg or call me at least now.. i dun feel good... i dun like this feeling... it makes me cry...haiz.. in the bus im holding the tears back.. i told boifren i dun feel good.. but he didnt even reply me.. is he at home or where?? i dun think so if he will be reading this now.. can i msg him now.. can i call him?? tk suke skali..i dun like this feeling... those negative things comes.. my feelings is not easy.. i dunnoe why.. i will always have wierd feelings if something is not right.. den if i said this and that to boifren.. he will start to shout at me.. say vulgar words to me.. wat i say is from my feelings itself.. haiz.. where are u? wat are u doing? wat u tell me issit the truth? u talking to ur uncle? i seriously hate this feeling.. zylaa sign off @Friday, July 30, 2010 ♥ Wednesday, July 28, 2010 Just finish watching Cinta Fitri 3.. I tell u its super damn sakit hati...da sakit hati tkpe.. sedih... tu normal la kn.. hehe...but the ending is super not gd.. as there would be Cinta Fitri 4 coming up... must watch the first episode.. cant miss it.. haiz.... while watching cinta fitri.. from wat i understand from that story..... selain drp balas dendam, gile harta.. ade bende lain sebaleknye.. ade org kate.. cite indonesia ni semua jln cerita nye same.. balek2 balas dendam and gile harta.. ya of course ade this couple yg bahagia, happy.. ade jek org tk suke.. but i ever wonder... ade tk dlm hidup ni same mcm cite2 mcm ni?? wat do u think... for me.. cite cinta fitri ni semua ade pelajaran sebaleknye... (chey mcm bagus jek) hehe... if me.. i think... i want to have my life is happy like fitri and farel.. they have gone through alot of miserables but their love is very strong... but... saye bersyukur kerana saye amat bahagia di samping matair ku yg selalu berkerje keras utk bertanggung jawab terhadap keluarganya dan juga ada kan masa untuk bersamaku... (mane nye bagus jek melayu... hehe...jgn get irritated suda org2 yg bace... sori) boifren is a very great person.. although at times he said this and that which could make me cry in a sudden.. but i trust him.. he is a very great person.. im lucky to have him with me.. he is very patient.. but if waiting for me to get ready or wat.. he is not la... hehehe... i like to see if we are having some problems.. i admire the way he talk to me and we settle things together.. he might be saying very harsh words and he might be look so angry... in my heart i am scared to be rude to him.. bt he is a very nice person.. he may look like he doesnt care at all.. but.. at certain times.. he may show how protective and caring he is..im really really really bersyukur (dlm bahase english ape ehk?) having him to be with me.. therefore boifren.. u dun kembang or watsoever ok.. i noe u will be busy this week and nxt mth.. i really really looking forward to meet u dear.. i really really miss u.. having u with me is the most happiest thing i ever had.. ily so much syg.. do have enuf rest after your shift.. we might be meeting aft ur midnight shift.. but.. have a great rest and enuf sleep ok dear.. syg u bby... i have some feelings to change myself.. but i just dunnoe where to start... zylaa sign off @Wednesday, July 28, 2010 ♥ Tuesday, July 27, 2010 Just now went to bank to do new account for myself... start saving from the scratch again...hmmm.. but half way when i want to put in the money, the atm doesnt want to accept the money.. stupid machine... just came back from sheng siong..funny funny story.. a makcik teach me how to choose a right fish.. i got so shock.. coz i was playing picking up the fish.. i pick up from the tail.. one good lesson i learn from her.. now im waiting for boifren to call me when he finish his work.. hmm.. i wonder.. he is so busy today.. how about tmr... haiz.. imy boifren..and and ilyt... zylaa sign off @Tuesday, July 27, 2010 ♥ Monday, July 26, 2010 Just came back from Jurong Point.. treat boifren at Swensen for his second bdae treat.. he saw some of the staff singing happy bdae to the person.. he said why he didnt get it...hehee... that was wat i plan d other day.. but since we went to genting.. i cancle off the plan.. but since he said that he dun like it to be happen.. so i kept quiet.. he ate chicken baked rice and as for me, i ate chicken breaded.. hmmm.. and we both had our desserts too... super full now... currently watching mexico vs korea soccer match for gerls.. kinda funny actually.. some with long hair.. hehehe..hmmm...but now korea is leading 2-0... oh no.. boifren told me something just now... i need to slowly think and have myself change... meaning.. if i... hmmm.. nvrm.. clarify with him later.. hmmm i still remember about my dream yesterday.. boifren made me a song titled.. mimpi..... something something i forget... its a very sad song.. when i woke up.. i cried.. hmmm.. feels kinda tired now.. mayb too much of things to think of and.. haiz.. like i said in the previous post.. something haunts me down day by day... haiz.. how i wish... im having a holiday with boifren again.. zylaa sign off @Monday, July 26, 2010 ♥ Sunday, July 25, 2010 Starting tmr or the day after boifren will be having a very hectic schedule due to YOG and also National Day..my roster will be the same and i will be having off during boifren 2nd day off.. i took it in case he is free and can meet me... pray hard that he wont be that busy and wont be so tired.. went to watch ong bak 3 just now.. i noe boifren was really tired.. i feel bad actually.. upon stepping inside lot 1 boifren said that he is tired and i nvr think about him at all.. i feel really really bad.. i told him.. lets go home.. but he ask me to keep quiet.. i shut my mouth and we walk to the movie theatre...so when we reach at level 5 i guess... its was so crowded.. i told boifren.. if the movie is full.. we watch it tmr.. but boifren told me tmr he cant cnfirm as he might be having recall.. so we proceed to watch the movie.. reach inside..i can see that he is taking a nap for a while..haiz.. lucky duirng the movie he was awake and concentrating on the movie.. but.. after a while nearly to the end of the movie he was asleep.. i can see his eyes is so small already... he didnt sleep since yesterday.. he was on his midnight shift yesterday and he went back home early to go visit a funeral.. he did fetch me over my workplace.. but i meet him at shaw.. now my watch is giving me problem.. i need to go to the watch shop and replace something.. haiz... boifren must be asleep now.. pity him.. i really felt bad through out the movie.. haiz.. im sori syg.. i ask u to come with me watch movie.. i noe nxt time we can watch too.. im so so so sori.. ily alot dear.. have good rest ok.. i meet u tmr if u dun have any recall.. i felt so cnfused this days bby... im sori if i trouble u alot.. i dunnoe why.. but i felt so confused.. i noe u have ur family problems too.. i dunnoe why something is haunting me through out this week.. at night i cant really sleep.. and my appetite is not there.. it really haunting me day by day.. i felt easy when u are around me.. i do felt like different if i want to hold ur hand or touch u, u will be like pushing my hand away.. haiz.. this thing really haunts me alot..bby.. i really love u alot syg.. i really do.. haiz.. i dunnoe... im still thinking about the full time job in hyatt.. should i accept or not.. or should i just stay part time as my pay is much more than wat full time gets.. boifren allow me to werk full time in hyatt.. its just that me.. i have to either accept it or not.. haiz.. boifren cant make decision for me.. i need to do it myself.. i have his permission already.. now is the decision making.. YES OR NO??? i feel so stress where something haunts me down and about this full time job, den about my family, den.. haiz.. i have to cut down on my shopping already... i think.. no more shopping for me anymore.. pls give me strength to go through this.. i dun want this to haunts me down day by day.. i dun want to give more stress to boifren as he have alot of responsibility to do and he have enuf stress with his werk and family... Labels: why this thing really haunts me down every single day zylaa sign off @Sunday, July 25, 2010 ♥ Friday, July 23, 2010 Wat a very pathetic meal i had today... i onli had 1 piece of coconut bread and a packet of keropok ikan.. hmmm.. awaits for tmr 4.30pm or late for my dinner time at werk.. its hard if mummy now always come back home late and daddy is werking extra hard to find more money.. daddy have been helping out at the bicycle shop in a secret manner.. and he didnt even tell us anything.. daddy is werking extra hard now.. while mummy.. haiz... lucky kakak went back home straight today after werk.. she bring back the bread for me.. now.. i felt hungry.. need to save more money and no more shopping spree for me... food and drinks is on our own now.. hopefully everything will goes fine in the future... haiz.. my heart sank when everytime im thinking about this.. about wat boifren told me yesterday i sticks to my mind.. i love u always boifren.. i really really do.... zylaa sign off @Friday, July 23, 2010 ♥ Yesterday i got shock when kakak called me and asking where am i.. she sounds angry a little bit.. i told her tat im at lot 1 with boifren and his sister.. kakak told me that my uncle 'cik wadi' wants to meet us.. im wondering wat issit all about.. so i followed boifren went to the library to meet his mum there.. after slacking at the library for a while, me and boifren took the same bus.. but boifren went straight back home with his sister while i drop at my aunties house..meet my sister under the void deck with my auntie.. i asked wat issit about actually...auntie told us its about mum and dad.. haiz... i knew it from the start... so me and sister went up to auntie house meet my uncle.. while auntie went to werk straight... before reaching auntie house.. outside her neighbour house, there is a cat which is big and i didnt even saw the cat at all.. kakak shout and i accidentally kick the cat... ooppss.. sori cat... laugh and laugh.. and we reach at auntie house... put our things down and then start the conversation.. talk and talk.. laugh and laugh... nenek was there to join the conversation.. overall.. it is just a reminder for us... thats all.... so now onwards...i have to do all this things if im having my day off... 1) wash all the utensils 2) vacuum the house 3) make my bed 4) clean my room 5) laundry 6) makesure everything is clean before i can step out the house 7) cant bring boifren back home again to chill haiz.. this is wat i need to do to makesure we are right and mum is wrong.. so she cant even find our fault at home anymore.. hopefully everything goes fine.. i feel so sad after wat boifren told me yesterday.. i kept thinking about it.. i dun want that to happen.. haiz.. mummy pls change ur behaviour... i hate it when u are like this.. i dun feel easy when everything is like this.. haiz.. why must everything goes like this? my mind is everywhere now.. but the main point is.. i really really scared of what boifren told me yesterday.. i kept running through my mind.. haiz.. bby.. i feel so sad when u said like that to me..i noe u cant blame me.. but.. haiz.. i feel so scared.. i feel so....haiz.. :( i feel hungry right now.. i have been eating this keropok ikan from just now and im walking here and there do hang the laundry and keep the house clean.. haiz.. i should save money from now onwards.. save more than wat i have been saving.. zylaa sign off @Friday, July 23, 2010 ♥ Thursday, July 22, 2010 A trip to Genting Highlands from 19 July 2010 till 21 July 2010 19 July 2010 Woke up in the morning at about 4.45am get ready for our trip.. About 5.30am called boifren to wake him up.. Check all my things and off i go to his house meet him before we proceed to Boon Lay Shopping Centre.. Its already 6.30am but still no taxi is available.. wait and wait.. about 6.45am we took the taxi and proceed to the reporting area.. awaits for the FIVE STAR TOURS to open and we get all the things and took the bus that is provided.. the bus is nice.. like wat boifren said.. its 2 storeys.. hehe.. 7.30am sharp the bus moved off from boon lay shopping centre and we head to second link checkpoint... it was super fast becoz there isnt any jam at all... after chop our passport there we go straight to genting highlands.. we slept like nobody business in the bus after we finish watch IP Man in the bus.. the bus driver on the dvd so we watch it... pit stop at yong peng.. bought some food but we dun really eat that much.. dunnoe why we dun have much appetite to eat... reached KL have our toilet break.. snap just 1 pic at that moment.. reached at the bottom of genting highlands.. there we go round and round and round... i got some headache.. as for boifren he was having stomachache... hmm... he asked me when will we be reaching.. looking up... its still high up there... showed boifren where is the top building.. in the bus its getting colder and colder... reached the top... we drop from the bus... i smiled as we finally reached... my head is still headache...walked towards the hotel lobby for us to check in... but we need to go to another place to check in... waited and waited... finally its our turn to check in.. get our room keys and off we go to the room... its nine floor... and its super cold... put our things down, get change and we went down to the shopping place... but before that the scenary from our room is super nice... its the theme park view.... hehe... so yes... we went to the shopping plaza... den walk around and looking wat are the things that we want to buy... walk and walk.. boifren felt so down at that moment... he was sick... he is having fever... his temperature is so high.. so walk slowly here and there... boifren decided to go for massage... he did some reflexology and shoulder massage... i sat at the sofa and look at his reaction only... i dun do any massage at all.. hmm.. everything ends about nearly 1030pm... i bought bags at that moment... and after everything... we go to coffee bean bought some cakes and drinks and off to our room... boifren couldnt take it anymore.. gave him some medicine and he was asleep... i cant sleep at that moment as boifren keep waking up... woke him up to give his panadol but he cant wake up... i slept nearly 2am i guess.. i was watching tv and i felt asleep after that... before we went shopping that day.. i was unpacking my things and boifren was asking for his bdae present.. i said i didnt bring.. but he took my bag.. and took out everything.. and he found it... damn.. no more surprise...haiz... 20 July 2010 It was boifren birthday... boifren wake me up and asked me wat time i sleep last night... told him everything.. wished him happy birthday too... checked his temperature.. his fever was stable at that moment... asked him to bathe and we go eat after that... chill for a while and we go shopping again...this time we like shop abit and off to our room coz boifren was so weak... im thinking and thinking wat to do... went to watson bought eno.. which is the wrong medicine... and den we walk and walk... we bought some shirt for his dad and sister... bought for himself and myself too... i carry all those stuff and back to the room... i was super tired too... boifren body is so damn hot... i mean as in his temperature is high... lucky he is weak.. he still can walk and shop at the same time... let boifren have a rest first and den we go out again... we tot of going to the theme park.. i mean the outdoor.. it was raining heavily at that moment... so we just walk and take a look... it was super cold..boifren is wearing 3 layers of shirt... he felt ok... looking at the temperature its 17 degree... at night is much more worst.. its 14 degree... tot of going to the snow world but its minus 8 degree.. so we dun go in... meet his fren over there and went to play snooker at night... after 1 game finish.. i see boifren is very weak already.. back to room and gave boifren some activefast panadol and he is perspiring already... i felt relieve as his fever is going down really fast.. make him some hot tea as well... he felt fine after that..not forgetting walking towards the outdoor theme park was super cold.. couldnt take it with the cold.. 21 July 2010 Woke up about 8.30am but reschedule the time woke up at 9.30am.. get up shower and have some food to eat at marybrown.. the food was nice.. looking outside it was super cold but its only 22 degree... looking at boifren he was feeling fine... and active at that moment... good to see him like that... i felt giddy and my body temperature going up... but i dun bother about it and keep on going shopping as we dunnoe wat to do with the money.. we both bought diesel jeans and its time for us to check out... the bus will be there at about 1430hrs.. so check in and search for the bus.. search and search.. no where to be found.. hmm... wait and wait... we were the last one to bought the bus... hmmm... off the bus goes its super damn fast the bus reached at the bottom of genting.. my ear was super painful... we had some pitstop.. we walk around and take a look at the things.. expensive... so went up back to the bus.. we slept till the nxt pitstop i guess.. to cut it short we reached singapore about 2230hrs... the feeling of 3days 2night was super fast...feel like going holiday again with boifren.. now both of us feels like dun want to go werk... having a long2 leave is great but go back to werk is like so tiring... being with him all the way was super great.. only that he was sick at that moment.. love him alot... that was the first trip me and boifren were out from singapore.. hopefully more and more trips in the future.. not all pictures is uploaded.. its too many... oh yes.. not forgetting... once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOIFREN.. ILY ALOT.. ALTHOUGH YOUR BIRTHDAY WASNT THAT REALLY GREAT FOR U, U WERE REALLY SICK ON THAT DAY.. BUT I REALLY HOPE YOU ENJOY THE GENTING TRIP.. zylaa sign off @Thursday, July 22, 2010 ♥ Friday, July 16, 2010 weeks by weeks i have been counting down... im very excited and really cant wait for the day me and boifren will be going genting together for the first time.. i hope this holiday trip will be fun and memorable for us... :) tmr will be my midnight shift.. and den its my day off.. off off off off off... hehehe... cant wait cant wait cant wait... *jumpjump around the house* but of course.. we went there as it boifren bdae too on the 20th July... this would be kinda different bdae celebration for him this year.. last year... we celebrate it in singapore... this year at genting highlands... but... some surprise coming up for him... ooppssss.... hehehe... ok... cant reveal anything more.. boifren will read this post.. like of course... zylaa sign off @Friday, July 16, 2010 ♥ Tuesday, July 13, 2010 Early morning called boifren.. tot of calling him like about early morning.. coz i have a tot of meeting him just now... but unfortunately, when i called.. he sounds angry.. he was outside at that moment... he went to the doctor with his mum... haiz.. wat a day to start... i tot boifren will be normal... but... he's not... den the way he msg me and talk to me kinda...DIFFERENT... i just kept quiet and didnt asked anything... i noe he will scream and shout at me... i kept quiet get ready and went to werk... i tried my luck to msg him and see whether he reply me or not... he did reply..reached work, i tried to call him... but he sounds some how ok... but still have that angry tone... so i hung up after a while... during work was the worse.. 1 by 1 make nonesense.. im the onli one who pick up the most calls.. and i need to do alot of things... i have ulcer at right at the back of my tongue.. i couldnt talk tat alot... but.. haiz... i hold on to the pain.. and keep on doing my job.. i did complain to boifren about some of it.. but.. as usual... he will say just ignore it.. i didnt say much... if i were to say many2 things, he will start angry again.. hopefully tmr will be a smooth day for me.. i really had a bad bad day.. but boifren was not like normal... i cant say alot.. coz i noe he will give me 1 answer tat i noe he will say tat is.. "U NI MANJE SANGAT AR" that is wat he will say to me.. so all i have to do is keep quiet and keep to myself... oh yes... forget to blog about saturday outing with boifren.. though we dun have any plans at all.. we walk from far east to city hall to watch fireworks.. thanks to lyana for letting me noe that there is fireworks going on... if not.. we dun have that idea to go and chill there awhile before the fireworks start... didnt shop anything.. onli bought some famous amos as boifren wants it so much.. bought it at wisma and den we walk slowly and talk... it reminds me about last time where me and boifren will be walking all the way from town to anywhere... i really have great great day with him... its been long since we walk tat far together.. :) our trip to genting will be in a few days time and i have yet to think of what to bring and stuff.. i think during my off day i will do everything.. boiofren for sure do all last minit... hmm... boifren wats wrong with u yesterday? haiz... i feel so hungry now... i couldnt eat and drink... haiz.. i force to eat.. but i couldnt.. see how.. its is so painful... no money to spent on something soft to eat.. wait for my dinner time at work onli.. zylaa sign off @Tuesday, July 13, 2010 ♥ Tuesday, July 6, 2010 last night i cant sleep...after a while i keep waking up and i dreamt alot of stupid things... was messaging boifren last night about his pm at facebook... he wrote there "guitars are much more fun that ur girlfriend". i was shock when i see those words on his facebook... i read all his comments... i felt so sad... i asked him lots of question but he dun really reply me back... i cried.. coz im shock...boifren onli say "u ni tk leh kene sikit ar" so i kept quiet and dun ask anything about it... but i cant stop him anything.. because guitar is his interest... he love music and he love guitars... as guitars is a non living thing... he strums and music came out from it... as for me... im a living thing, he can meet me, talk to me... and everything... not much of comparision though.. while msging him and crying... i fell asleep... but i woke up after an hour... haiz... i dreamt i dun wake him up for his training today... i got scolding from him as usual... i suddenly woke up look at the time its onli 4am... sleep back and check my phone there isnt any msg from him... so at 7.30am i called him... but he reject my call..he always did that... i noe... thats how i wake him up every morning except during those days that we want to go out or not he will pick up the call... wake him up every 15mins till 8am.. i felt so scared that boifren wont be talking to me... im scared he is still mad at me... but he is not... he txt me about 1pm just now to check where am i coz im out to ica building to collect my passport... it was super fast like im there taking a walk... just sit down and its my turn already..kakak was there accompany me... the journey at first was ok... but after awhile i felt like my money was gone... haiz... waste money going from lavender to bugis by taking mrt...haiz... nvrm... eat at tong seng... den walk at bugis junction, bugis street... but kakak bought me crabtree and evelyn hand lotion...i like it so much... so aft walking there, we went to lot1 as i want to check on the travel thingy... so went dbs first... kakak wants to enquire something... so followed her... she was the one who ask me change my atm card... so boifren dun get it wrong ok... she is the one... so after asking this and that at that wts travel agency... as usual.. kakak and her comments... she said boifren dunnoe how to walk here and there at KL.. so we dun need to go... i told boifren the whole entire story... boifren look so angry...he talk everything to me... i noe boifren is a person who is a very good explorer where he like to walk here and there... though i will be with him onli 2 person, he will take care of me.. i dun feel scared at all... coz the first time he rent a car, he bring me here and there... i can see the confidence in him...boifren is someone who will actually research first before he go to the place... so after i research this and that, like finally we decide to go genting highlands...txt boifren about the price and boifren finally replied saying that he want me to meet him at jurong point.. met him at jurong point at about 6 plus.. im late...becoz of the bus... super jln lembab... den walk here and there... i felt so thirsty...we walk up to the travel agency... take a look and den i took the number and wait for the queue number to be called.. wait and wait.. mean while talk to boifren about earlier on when i was with my sister going to ica building... he did comments this and that... i think if kakak were to follow us to genting... boifren wont have a very good time... coz kakak will want to go to most places like luxury places.. i will be there looing at her shopping and i will stand outside the shop...haiz...so already book our genting trip.. and i cant wait for it... must set aside some money... and must check my money coz its my pay day tmr.. yippie... boifren must be fast asleep now.. coz he will be working morning tmr... no matter wat muhaimin... i nvr even think of leaving u... i nvr even have the feeling of leaving u... u scold me, u say vulgar words to me, u make me cry, u make me think so much about something u said to me, u look at other gerls etc... i will still love u and i will nvr leave u... 1 thing im just afraid of... u leaving me.. that is wat im afraid of... i love u will all my heart.. u make me realise everything... u change me.. u protect me, u pamper me.. i dun think there would be a reason for me to leave u.. tk pernah terfikir smp ke situ pn... i noe ur job is very dangerous.. im worried too.. i felt easy whenever u txt me during work time.. i sayang u very much... u might sometimes say that u cant believe that im with u now.. coz we were friends last time.. yes i noe we are friends.. at first i was shock too... but now.. i really really love u so much.. bby.. i tau u kasar.. care u bbl.. care kite gurau.. u are kasar.. but i still can accept u bby... i took 2 hrs to finish this thing.. :) Labels: never in my heart i have the feeling to leave u...NEVER zylaa sign off @Tuesday, July 06, 2010 ♥ Monday, July 5, 2010 boifren was suppose to accompany me to ICA Building tomorrow to collect my passport...but unfortunately, he have inservice.. so he cant make it... i have to go on my own... haiz... my appointment will be at 1330hrs.. im not sure which level will that be.. and how or where to start with by collecting my passport... usually someone would actually follow me... hmm... just see how i survive in ICA building alone... maybe after collecting i will be going to lot 1 to have a last check of the KL trip.. have it reserved and on saturday will book it..boifren have already agreed.. so ya.. we will be having a kl trip in 2 weeks time... i wonder is he sleeping, eating or watching tv.. waiting for him to reply my msn, hp msg or return call to me... lets see which one he will reply... meet him just now.. but we went to eat.. walk here and there at jurong point, buy some stuff from popular and also bought him famous amos.. as he wants it so much.. i dun buy as i dun have money...but its ok... haiz.. why am i always want to complaint about this and that.. hmmm.. i better keep quiet and keep it to myself.. zylaa sign off @Monday, July 05, 2010 ♥ Sunday, July 4, 2010 last night boifren make me so damn angry and sad... haiz... he kept saying about clubbing... look the way he is...*look up* i like the way he is like that rather then him change his genre for clubbing... boifren does change frm wat i realise.. haiz... last time he always talk about rock songs.. he will say about guitars, about bands.. and also story about all those rock things... but now... there isnt anymore.. i noe he nvr dress up anymore like that... now he ask me about katy perry, about clubbing songs, about all those artist... in his ipod even have those kind of songs that i listen to, last time he always said to me... "u.. pls.. ur songs are so irritating" he does not even want to listen to any of it when i ask him listen to my mp3... he change... he really2 change... last time he doesnt even like say so harsh word to me... i noe... 1year plus is so long which we spent time tgt alot of time... and i noe much things have already change... but pls...dun change to someone new... i like the way u are... u being protective, u care, u even find some evil time to be with me when u are very busy or cant go out.. i noe u having a stable job now.. our timing are different... we work shift now... onli 1 day or 2 days we can meet each other during ur off days..but.. i miss those times where u rush to meet me and bring me to the doctor, u sneak out to have some time with me... i noe, i nag alot last night.. i just want u to noe the reason why.. i want u to noe how i feel... but still... u said the same way... i told u everything... haiz.. when i said abit u will be like... i lazy to talk to me... u dun like me to be nagging at u.. but y u making me like this? u said i dun think about u... but then wats all this? all those post im writing.. have some small little notes for u to noe... for u to check and see everyday... isnt this an evidence that im thinking about u every single day? i noe i dun post like everyday... but isnt it like i will at least update something to let u noe everything?there goes again me nagging and nagging... i just feel sad... i just need u to understand me... understand my feelings... u might be joking2 with me at times.. yes i noe... hmmm... i sayang u ok... muaackkzz...meet u soon...i miss u zylaa sign off @Sunday, July 04, 2010 ♥ Thursday, July 1, 2010 "was suppose to post this like about 2 days ago.." i felt relieve after kakak came back from kl...its not that i cant share anything with boifren...yes i do...i can...but he is not with me when im at home...he is sick too..he is injured...so i dun want disturb him that much..lucky boifren have already recover now after 2 days of mc... i sent him to this chinese medical shop.. he is there like cacing kerawit coz he is in pain... didnt get to eat my ben and jerry.. nxt time will do... hmm... i felt like crying looking him like that... i did cry la actually in the bus when he ask me to go home... i cry its because im thinking about at home and also about him... i felt bad...i feel like its me who makes his hand really pain till he is like that... but i didnt told him that im crying coz its about him...but instead i told him its about i dun want to go home...haiz... so.... today, 2nd july 2010... its a 2nd day of a new month...another 18 more days to boifren's bdae... im getting headache... coz i need to save money and also... i need to save money too... i have to help boifren...but his bdae... i have plan something..want to noe wat issit?? boo hoo... cannot tell... its a secret... i have some plans la... but i dunnoe whether this thing will help or not....i hope it will works... like i wat i surprise boifren like few days ago without his knowing...i came his house to pass him food as he is sick... didnt get to meet him but i felt better when i got to give him something that he can recover soon... hmmm... everytime when me and boifren go out, we will always listen to songs via his ipod... but he will gave me listen to different songs from his ipod... some songs i got in love with till im addicted to it.. but some im not really into it... i will onli go home and check out the song and read the lyrics wat issit about... usually malay rock songs.. it have lots of meaning... boifren teach me so... yeah... i noe some songs the lyrics this and that... so just now in the bus when we were otw back homr from cathay after eating our ben and jerry... like finally! boifren play this song HATIKU KEKAL PADAMU BY MUS.. it was suppose to be a chinese song by VINCENT LEE NI DAO DI AI SHUI... so i check out the song and listen to it carefully... it was about a person who is really love this person, and in the end the person was left all alone... i can cry listening to that song... its very sad... try listen to it... so i ask boifren about this song... and ask a few general question about some songs... i always have a negative thinking whenever he let me listen to this kind songs...haiz... i dunnoe why... mayb boifren always kept saying the name...boifren always story about this and that... so... i felt so... i dunnoe... i felt so sad... its like he still love her.. and he is like comparing between me and her... i noe im different like wat boifren said to me earlier when we were spending time together... i felt sensative but i have to hide it... i have to be strong... boifren words are very sharp at times... if i say abit different... we can start quarrel... haiz... i always try to get away from boifren saying those names and also story about this and that as in about past... it feel so hurtful... hearing the name can make me go crazy... haiz... i love u alot syg... but pls... i noe u at times gurau2 with me... but at times... ur words are too sharp and makes me think negatively... haiz...ape tah lagi bile part u ckp ngn i pmpn ni lawa...pmpn tu lawa den u start to compare2 me and them... i noe i dun have good body, pretty face... i noe u like chinese gerls... haiz... nvrm...have good rest and recover soon... zylaa sign off @Thursday, July 01, 2010