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♥ Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I HAVE ENOUGH... I HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL OF UR SHIT... I DUN GIVE A DAMN TO WAT U WANT TO SAY... U trying to talk to me... but wat...by saying all those... u said i dunnoe how to clean my room...u said i onli noe how to dress up myself...going out is all i noe...wat the fuck...im going out to find money...u bloody shit... i find my own pocket money...i work overtime to find more money...wat do u think im going out and finish werk so late is becoz i want to have fun...ehk fuck...if i onli noe how to go out without finding money a single cent at all... i understand...but now...i go out find money...and i go out, shopping with my own money...have i ever ask u for money anymore?? no rite...so..just keep your mouth shut...every month...i gave u money...i gave u less u make such a very big thing in the family... u compare me and kakak... but look... my job is not like kakak...im working PART TIME... NOT FULL TIME...DO U UNDERSTAND?? WHICH PART OF THE WORD U DUN UNDERSTAND...???? i kept quiet... i nvr talk back to wat u said to me...u said this and that... fine...u say wat u wanna say...like just now...u ask that to ask me where i buy that chewy junior... u think i nvr hear to wat u said? u said loud and clear behind me somemore...im like a PERFECT STRANGER in this house... kakak is away from singapore for the last 3 days 2 nights...haiz... now im seating here on the sofa quietly...and the at the other end saying this and that...i kept quiet... i listen to wat she say... i dun want to be 'kurang ajar'...once i open my mouth...there...it will go a world war 3 at home...for sure...i will be kick out from the house... i noe she doesnt want to see my face anymore... i dun have anymore strength and im not strong enuf... bby... i noe...u worried im doing some stupid things... i promised u...i wont do stupid things k... i just dun have anymore strength to hold on this anymore... i feel too stress... i feel too much for this... kakak is away... im alone here... i onli have u... u are the one who always stop me frm this and that... i think if i dun have u here...i have run away from home... i dun have the heart to stay here anymore...u are the one who encourage me to come home...just sit at home... kept quiet and let them say what they want... haiz.... sori syg... i didnt tell u about me meeting ur sister earlier just now... i wanted to meet u...but u sound angry and tired... so i secretly call adek and ask her meet me at the bustop...coz i knew u were sleeping at that moment of time... i was shock when u text me right away when adek just walk away...so u were shock rite syg... although im stress... i think about u too...ur heath...u recover or not.. im worried about u too...so i bought ur favourite chewy junior... i noe u will like it... make sure u eat it ok... thanks to my colleagues in hyatt giving some advice to me...especially kak nor, kak liza and hajar.. zylaa sign off
@Tuesday, June 29, 2010 ♥ Sunday, June 27, 2010
our bangkok trip is off...now planning for the genting and KL trip... now waiting for the ppl who will be going have their leave approve or not...as for boifren he will noe at the end of the mth....so im just waiting...i dunnoe where to go if kak liza husband didnt get any off day at all... my plan for the bangkok trip is gone...i need to think for a new one at kl...if kl also gone...haiz... go where? langkawi? desaru? tioman? bintan? haiz... all i want is to be with boifren, we release stress..we happy with each other...at least spent quality time tgt...but now...haiz...will plan further with boifren zylaa sign off
@Sunday, June 27, 2010 ♥ Wednesday, June 23, 2010
haiz.. i dun want to complain...but i have too... boifren just stepped out from my house... he went and meet his cousin... i dunnoe to where...i asked him...i asked him again and again...but he kept quiet.. i was thinking the whole entire hours that he is at my house... i feel like sad...he nvr tell me.. when he said he want to go off...i was like...feel worried...where is he going... sejak kebelakangan ni... bile part balek kerje mlm jek... mesti i have the feeling that he will tell me...he want to go out... true enough...he did.. balek kerje mlm, mlm mesti kluar... mcm da berubah...dulu tk mcm ni...den kebelakangan ni jugak...da dgr lagu no rock anymore like he used to..but those song that i listen to.. i noe everybody change...but why must he change like this...btol ke ape org kate da masok bidang baru mesti prangai berubah...ade berubah drp baik smp naik club la..ni..entah la... i realise that he always go out at night... bile tanye gi mane...he will say byk bende... its not that i dun want to percaye...but...those words...always make me worried...makes me feel so..i dunnoe... u said about gerls..going here and there...i have a feeling too...like today...i wanted to spent time with u till tmr...but...u went off...u said u want to go watch soccer...when i ask u alot of times...u kept quiet...i dun want irritate u... u not like this before...going out at night always...i tau org u tk suke kluar mlm...tapi...skg...haiz... i feel like u change... u change to someone else... i noe u did check on me as usual...but.. in other way... u change... seriously...i felt so sad...u became like this... u bbl pn kasar skg...i seriously sad u change... look...i still cant forget about that thing...and it always makes me think that u hide something frm me and u.....haiz...nvrm...i dun want say much...before anything u say about me...i tk nk u salah fhm...and i dun want to quarrel with u... zylaa sign off
@Wednesday, June 23, 2010 ♥ Monday, June 21, 2010
Like finally i got to watch karate kid.. Thanks to boifren u really walk fast to the movie theater and right on time we bought the ticket and the door is open for us to go in and take our seat... we sat really far behind and its at the side...i dun really like to seat at the side but the view is kinda good...so i dun complain at all...the show is really long...show time was 6.50 but it ends about 9.30pm...hmmm...its a really nice show i can say...but funny thing is boifren talk so loud in the movie theater...and one of the part the ppl in the movie was clapping their hands go that kid won the competition...as if they are really watching the kid in the actual competition... I didnt sleep the whole entire day when we go and watch the movie...i just couldnt sleep... i work midnight the day before and i finish werk at 7am on sunday...so i change and then i went back home...when i was in the bus, kakak call me asking where am i...i inform her and she ask me to wait at blk 26 as she want to bring me for breakfast...so i wait and wait...they were so late...i can sleep at the bustop...so went to eat and then reach home about 9am...call boifren but he can still pick up the phone inform him about the timing and he said ok...so i tried to sleep but on like 2 hrs i sleep i woke up...i dunnoe what makes me woke up...at about 1230 i called boifren to wake him up...call and call and call...but he nvr pick up...until 1320 den he pick up the call... so told him that i want to get ready and meet him there at his place...went out about 2 plus...met him at the bustop...boifren told me that we will be meeting his cousin...but...last minit kak nor boifren didnt wake up...so we proceed with watching the movie...boifren wanted to go for karaoke...but its onli the 2 of us...so we watch movie... after movie...went to blk 26 buy food...me and boifren share food with each other at my house...the food doesnt seem to taste well...sit for a while...talk talk talk...den sent him down to take cab...boifren straight away sleep without any nite2 kiss for me...i went to bed after that... these days we have been planning to go to thailand... everything is settle...but the main thing is boifren leave is not approve yet...haiz.. please faster approve k..den i can book everything fast... its been long since i got to hug u really tight..i got to hug u like finally...i love u alot syg...the main reason i want to go holiday with u...i want to release stress and also i want spent time with u...and its during ur bdae...i really hope this year ur bdae will be different like last year.. i syg my bby alot...muuacckzz zylaa sign off
@Monday, June 21, 2010 ♥ Saturday, June 19, 2010
 was suppose to werk afternoon shift but i have to change werk midnight shift today... i reached work already earlier this morning...but they called me to come midnight shift also...i decline at the first place coz i knew i wanted to meet boifren tomorrow as i requested to go out with him..but its ok...tired or not...sick or not...i will meet him also tomorrow...i will arrange everything just for me to go out and spent time with him..this few days when i was otw to werk..i felt jealous to see other couples walking around with their boifren..spending quality time together.. laughing here and there...its not that i want to say i didnt like joke around with boifren or wat...we did...but i just want to spent quality time with him...i noe during his 2nd day off he wont get to go out till late at night...but at least i can be with him watch movie or something... hopefully i get to go out with him and spent quality time with him tomorrow... i have been coughing, flu and also have some slight fever these days.. boifren did ask me not to go to werk but i did went to werk...but strange...he didnt ask me to eat my medicine or something...although he ask me to have my rest..but he didnt mention about medicine at all..hmmm...these days i really felt like want to be with him all the way...its maybe becoz im worried...im thinking about all those things...im so like sensitive about that...bby...i noe u trying ur best to be with me duirng ur off days...im sorry if i make u tired..rase tk tenang tu masih ade...i tried to forget about it...but it takes time ok...meet me after werk tomorrow ok? imy bby zylaa sign off
@Saturday, June 19, 2010 ♥ Thursday, June 17, 2010
i feel so weak right now...have been sneezing and coughing through out the day...i just dun understand why...am i too stress? whats wrong with me...i feel so cold in a sudden... my throat is so dry.. haiz.. oh no!! mama nigau..scary... ok back to my story.. hmm.. now talking on the phone with him...he is listening to song and sing..now your gone~~~~~~irritating song.... now can continue updating my coz i have already put down the phone... was talking to kak liza about going bangkok and also ask her whether she wants to come with us or not...but will see how...must discuss with boifren more further...den we can decide where to go...going malaysia might be ok...but might be not ok..my legs and hands are so cold... hiding my legs behind this big pillow at my sofa...super cold... issit because i think too much... or stress too much.. just 2 days past.. the feeling of not good is there still but i keep myself to be strong and not to think negative.. just see how tomorrow...if i feel so weak... i think i will just go to the doctor and see how after that...boifren did scold becoz i just want to take medicine and den i go to werk.. i can cntrl bby...no worries... i will be working till 11pm tomorrow... boifren always scold me when i said about this... he said im talking nonsense...its not nonsense..what do u think...i feel like someone stalking our relationship...like this is in a sudden...haiz... binggung rase nye... my heart although i felt happy...i felt safe when u are with me...u checking on me...but the other side...i feel scared and worried...haiz.. bby... i noe u might be sick and tired im saying about this...but...im not nagging...im not merajok...im just worried about everything... i dun feel good...hmmm... i dun want quarrel with u...i just need u...i need u to be with me always...i tkt...mcm rase tk safe gitu...im sorry i was so quiet last night...i feel like crying...i hug u alot of times coz i wanted to cry...i dunnoe if u notice it...i just need u...haiz.. i binggung... bby..pls proof to me that this thing wont disturb our relationship pls... i baru nk get be pampered by u...but something else came... haiz...i dunnoe...my head is so pain... but bby... ily alot..and imy.. i dunnoe...what am i talking about...all i can say..im...i dunnoe...arghh... zylaa sign off
@Thursday, June 17, 2010 ♥ Tuesday, June 15, 2010
 one thing goes...one more thing comes.. ya allah adakah ini satu ujian untuk ku? my heart was like poking by needles..not onli needles but nails.. im not heartbroken but im shocked and sad.. First of all.. i want to apologise to my boifren coz my phone was flat and i didnt get to reply his msgs.. u merajok ngn i smp i call u reject ehk? im sori syg i didnt inform u...my mind was everywhere...i couldnt concentrate wat my teacher is explaining infront... my heart pump really fast...my eyes filled with tears but im holding onto it... i dun want to reveal anything here... i just hope u noe what im talking about...im really shocked im really sad...i seriously hold on to everything...i told u last time u said ok and u promise me...but tis time...i was so... i dunnoe...im shocked...i noe everyone makes mistakes...everyone is not perfect... like i said to u...if i every catch u... u noe what will i do...u noe what is right and what is wrong...i respect u... i dun want to be rude to u...but about this i really have no chance but to do wat im not suppose to do... i might not have a body , i might not have the pretty face and i might not have a talent.. i trust u...u dun make me till i lost my trust... i mark my words of what i said to u thru the msgs... i noe i made mistake before...but i really learn my mistake carefully... like i told u i wont repeat my mistake... u salah i tegur...i salah u tegur...thats wat we always do right...i really hope u dun even kept anything from me...haiz... bby... mmg hati i tk tenang bby... its hard for this to go off... i will be off tomorrow.. i will just be at home.. i dunnoe.. all i need is u... i need u to get all this thing go off from my head... its onli u...onli u who can help me on this.. i baru brape hari ni...nk pamper ngn u...but...i was shocked to see about this...i tk merajok...i cume terkejot...i tot i got my pamper frm u again.. but unfortunately this thing happens...haiz... may i have the strength and happiness that i have again... i need ur pamper...and i need ur love.. i syg u...i trust u...and i miss u... i really hope u will think of what i said and do wat is right and not to do what is wrong...i trust u... i will prove to u im a gd girlfren to u and i wont repeat any of my mistakes towards u again... last but not least... GD LUCK FOR YOUR IPPT TOMORROW..I WISH FOR THE BEST FOR YOU...HOPE U PASS OK.. I WAIT FOR U TILL U FINISH UR IPPT.. I WILL BE AT HOME.. zylaa sign off
@Tuesday, June 15, 2010 ♥ Monday, June 14, 2010
 today was suppose to finish work at 7pm but since my supervisor ask me out so she let me go finish work at 6pm...so both my supervisor ellis and also my colleague hajar finish werk at 5.30pm, den they change this and that...i finished work at 6pm so change quickly den kak lily was there too...so we go off about 6.20pm like that... this was the plan...ellis ask me out coz hajar wants to go find some fabrics for her baju kebaya... so.... at 6.20pm went to security checkpoint to punch out...off to orchard mrt... took mrt drop off at bugis..walk to arab street...when to search for fabrics high and low...lastly reached at one of the shop...we were looking and looking den not hajar bought the fabric but kak lily was the one who grab it...i have the tot of buying...due to not enough of money...i change my mind not to buy...so i just follow them around...kak lily fabrics was super nice...she bought songket and also lace...haiz...i found the songket that i want...unfortunately...i cant buy...i really really want that white songket...haiz...its been long since i want white songket...but i didnt get... after grabbing the fabrics..we went to find place to eat...find and find...den we eat at kak lily fren shop...nice though... hehehe....i feel so full...must bring bby go there one day... while eating...we were talking and storying about all the things...so looking at the time...its 9.30 so off we go to bugis mrt and off home.... dun worry bby...i tk kasi ape2 alasan pn...k...hmm...today u werk with someone u dun like no wonder u cant msg me...now i understand...tadi bbl ngn u half way i realise that i talk alone actually when u hang up the call...u didnt tell me at all...but i heard someone was talking to u... bby ily so much...please dun be mad if i call2 u ok...i noe u bingit psl werk....syg bby....  zylaa sign off
@Monday, June 14, 2010 ♥ Sunday, June 13, 2010
this few days i always receive calls from u but u are in a angry tone..i noe up till now i cant really differenciate your voice whether u are angry really really angry or u just like step buat suare tu coz u are disturbing me...u ever did that to me didnt u?? i still remember u disturb me till i cried.. but this few days so like different...u at times dun reply my msg...u reject my calls.. its not that i want to complaint or i want to make 'prangai'.. i noe u would say that as u always said i 'merajok' this few days...im not merajok..senang kate bbl melayu sudah la kn..i tk merajok...cume i rase pelik...u nye suare kdg2 u mcm tengking..u mcm bbl kes mcm garang gitu... sape yg tk salah sangka... i bukan nk irritate u... but its like i feel so far away from u.. i just dun get it when i ask u...u ckp tkde pape... haiz... i was crying till my head is really damn pain right now.. was deleting some of your msgs just now coz my inbox is some how full...so i read and read while im selecting the msgs that i want to delete...i dunnoe why...i was crying like non stop... i miss u pamper me...with the way u msg where we always laugh... den the way u msg me so like make me feel so happy.. but this few days there isnt like that...its like all the msgs is so serious...i miss those msgs that u msg me like always... i noe im a gerl...i cant do much things like u do... like u said...ur a guy and im a gerl.. hmm... what i can say is...overall...i actually miss u pamper me.. i really really do...i felt happy when u ask me to take the same 5 days off.. i really really hope..i could spent time with u.. bby u are protective...i noe... i felt happy whenever u msg or call me...but please dun be so fierce please... i feel so like... i dunnoe...i noe u said u want go pub to watch soccer...but please...eventhough i said yes.. after like i clarify everything frm u...i still feel worried...i noe pub is very different frm club... but... even at pub anything could happen... i really hope u noe ur limits bby...i dun want to see u bored..i noe u want to go out with ur frens at times..but please.. just 1 thing...noe your limits...i trust u...just that...inform me..thats all... all i want is u not to cheat on me... i syg u bby...and... i miss u alot.. zylaa sign off
@Sunday, June 13, 2010 ♥ Saturday, June 12, 2010
i suddenly feel so sad when i drop off the bus just now after work.. i just dunnoe why...i keep on looking and looking at my phone whether boifren return my call or msg...but none of it was there...its just the feeling of vibration was there... i feel like crying...i feel like laughing...i feel like shouting... i just dunnoe why am i feeling like this... called boifren earlier today but he sounds tired and different...can i at least have boifren to be with me...i need his hug...i need his kiss.. and i need some pampering from him... i dunnoe if he will read this and bring me out tmr...hopefully its yes... haiz.... zylaa sign off
@Saturday, June 12, 2010 ♥ Thursday, June 10, 2010
i cant sleep the whole night.. i kept woking up every hour to check on my phone...although i felt so tired.. i dunnoe what kept me woke up the whole entire nite...in my heart i felt sad...i felt sad coz i dunnoe..whether boifren is ok or not... am i in a fault whereby something that i share with him is actually sensitive for him..like i said its hard to judge boifren...he is different.. he will kept quiet and not say anything...all he will do is say alot of words that can make me cry.. haiz... am i in the wrong? im confuse... called boifren last night but his voice is so different...i noe he is tired after work... haiz...i dunnoe...im confused...am i in the wrong???????? ya allah please give me strength... i noe boifren will shout and scold vulgarities if i call him...its all depends... bby please... we need to talk...i dun want this thing to melarut... i am sincere to u...im saying the truth...kalau i btol tk syg u and main kn hati u...i tk akan buat ape2...i tk akn nk call2 u...msg2 u after i share the other day with u...i just want to noe...am i in the wrong...? i seriously confused...i nk tau...i kerje bkn nk menggatal...i kerje untuk carik duit... like i said...my werk is to communicate...bby...fyi...i tk rapat pn ngn die...i bbl stakat bbl psl kerje... semua org kat dept i becok...termasok la i...after werk i straight go home and i will even rush to meet u or i straight go home...bby...can i at least show it to u that im actually saying the truth?? please...i want to noe am i in the wrong...please txt me bby...im seriously confused...i tk tau i ni salah ke tk...i tau very hard to judge..but...can we talk...please... zylaa sign off
@Thursday, June 10, 2010 ♥ Wednesday, June 9, 2010
i rase bersalah walaupon i tk buat ape ape salah...i rase bersalah sebab i buat u sedih... my heart suddenly stops when i hear ur voice like that... whats wrong? are u crying? im telling u the truth...im not lying...like u said i slalu ade masalah..but im actually sharing with u someting of what happen at werk...i dun have any intention of making any problems with u... bby...i syg u sorg jek... i truly love u...if i dun love u, i dun even bother to noe anything about u...i tk jage hati u...now im taking care of ur heart... i noe u feel sad of what i said...but seriously...i dun have any intention to make u sad or wat...please im sorry if what i talk to u make u like this...please.... zylaa sign off
@Wednesday, June 09, 2010 ♥ Tuesday, June 8, 2010
bby... being with u is the most precious thing i ever had... everytime when i feel some difficulties...u are the first one i will find and i will share with...sometimes u sounds like u dun even care...but after a while...u will give me advice..u gave me motivation at times... when we have some problem occurs..we will find solution together..without being harsh with each other...although u did like few times being so angry with me...but at the end of the day... we will be back as per normal... u are protective...u worried at times whenever im going out or i finish werk late at night.. we share alot of things with each other...sometimes u disturb me till i cry..as time pass by...i realise alot of things change..u have been already working shift basis...as for me..im just working as a part timer..but still i earn money... we gone thru lots of ups and downs... but...alhamdullillah..we are still strong...i feel comfortable when u are around...i love the way u hug me, kiss me and also pamper me...although sometimes this 3 things will actually follow the mood of yours..hehe...the way u are when we are outside..like most of your friends said..we always like gado..not as in real gado but like quarrel over a small things...the way we joke around is very rough... hehe... i noe its hard for u to trust whether what i tell u issit true or not...i tau i tkde evidence...but do u think if im wrong im very brave to tell u all this? kalau i salah, u dpt tangkap, u mesti tau kn mcm mane i jwb...i tk akn nk lawan balek ckp u...i will always tell the truth...i dun even bother to tell lies about all this things that i told u yest...i noe my limits...i noe where i stand...what for i nk menggatal sedang kn i ade u... its better for u to hear from my mouth den ppl buat mulut psl i...i syg u...i da pernah kene lecture ngn u...do u think i want to do it again? u must be crazy if u think i have the heart to do it again...its a totally NO! NO! ppl might said its up to me whether i want or not...but seriously frankly speaking...its a NO NO...i wont do it again...i blang u sbb i tau i tk salah...kalau i salah do u think i will tell u? mesti i tk brani nk...hmmm...i syg u...sbb tu i tk nk stupid2 things happen to us...i love u alot dear... zylaa sign off
@Tuesday, June 08, 2010 ♥ Sunday, June 6, 2010
As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold. I miss those days where we always shop together, having fun together...like u said to me the other day...u still feel strange how come we can be together...and its like...we have been together for 1 year plus...and we are still strong.. we go through lots of things together...its not easy to have someone special like u...u are someone special that i have right now...i feel so happy to have u with me...i will always love u syg...u will always in my heart... zylaa sign off
@Sunday, June 06, 2010 ♥ Friday, June 4, 2010
 Just now meet kak lily at jurong east mrt station at 9.20am to sent ipin at airport..he will flying off to brunei for 7 mths...ipin doesnt noe about kak lily and my plan actually...so we make a suprise for him...so we actually acting thru out the journey..till i have to actually like acting msg...and i have to disturb boifren werking...hehehe....sori sayang...so thru out the journey...me and kak lily story this and that...just to make the situation very lively and also make it really fun...so everybody is not so quiet and sad...hayati ipin girlfren was so quiet thru out the journey...she didnt even eat... i noe how she feels...she might not have appetite to eat and also she is feeling sad...by looking at her face...i noe... so we went to eat...and then we chill over at polar puff and cakes...so while seating down we story about jobs and also future...kak lily was asking ipin what he want to be once he came back to singapore after 7 mths...so while we were seating and watching people walking here and there, den we saw people pushing trolleys..ipin said he want to try to werk as a trolley service...den when he say in his resume he wants to write about all this....hahaha...super funny conversation that we had....looking at the time, its already 1344hrs...we have to move up to the departure side to check which gate ipin will board his flight...so we went up and then we see...sent him to the checkpoint...and we have to say goodbye to him of course...so first kak lily hug him of course...den followed by me...den followed by his girlfriend...looking at both of them both me and kak lily start to feel so sad...and kak lily cried...i hold on to my tears of course...den kak lily pop up this question to me...'adek if ipin was replace by min what will u feel..?' i start to think and i feel freaking sad..i said to her i will cry like what hayati did...i will hug him so tightly and cry...but i think i couldnt get a chance to hug him as his parents will be sending him too...so i will onli break down...kak lily said...if it were to be her...she will broke down and tergolek-golek over there...so we control our emotion of course... so ipin like finally go in and check in everything... so we walk to mrt station...hayati stop crying...but in the mrt...she cried again...only 2 weeks ipin came back to singapore and there he need to go back to brunei for nxt 7 mths...haiz...so pity of hayati.... boifren...if it were to be u...i think i will tergolek-golek and cry...i will hug u really really tight of course...haiz...bby...i think nxt week will onli be the day that we can meet each other...i miss u so much sayang...bby...im very worried about this weekend actually...i noe u have to drive...but please drive safely..i noe u are working really like so hard for this week till we cant spent time with each other... haiz...bby...ily so much...and i miss u....dun forget to eat..rest well and also take care of ur health ok... zylaa sign off
@Friday, June 04, 2010 ♥
I just came back from werk..kinda tiring as i have been working and working and working...this week its like kinda hard to meet boifren and also spent time with him...on monday i meet him and watch movie with him...was suppose tmr boifren must have his off day...but unfortunately he will be working...i took off day everytime his 2nd day off coz that the onli time i can actually spent time with him..even though its onli like few hours for us to spent time with as boifren will resume back to werk the nxt day in the morning i still really appreciate and also treasure those moments with him...yesterday i really really knock out when i reached home...check my facebook a while and then im off to sleep..msg boifren but there is no reply from him..i guess he might be busy...and true enough he is busy...so cant say anything...at about 7 plus i guess boifren finally msg me saying that he wants me to meet him at under his void deck.. so i agreed and waited for his message again saying that he have already finish work...slept again and about 10am he message me saying that he have done everything...so i went to take a shower and get ready for werk too...so reached at his house at 12pm...so pass it to him...and waited for the bus...as usual i missed a bus..and also im late for werk...i cant go for briefing..if i go for sure kena scolding...so i didnt go for briefing at all...seated at the desk at 2pm...once i seat...everything start...ziela here...ziela there...i was like...blur...all about phone template about this and that...i was so damn busy...where phone calls non-stop ringing...i felt so tired...had some trainings also just now...at 4.30pm i went for my break...but its like...i took 1 hr for my break..was suppose to be 45mins..after my break ended...again...lots of things to do...all those admin stuff...i just dunnoe why today is super busy..and there goes boifren gave me a missed call...call him back...i just dunnoe why...he said this and that...i was like...so..stress out...as i have alot of things to do...there he goes saying this and that...haiz...im super stress..things have not yet done...my eyes was full with tears...i keep on pick up calls and stuff...bt half way i stop...cant take it anymore...text boifren and stuff...while multi tasking with all my other work...haiz...i just dunnoe why this days are so busy...hopefully things will get better and not busy like just now...  bby whats wrong with u tadi? u bbl mcm gitu...u tk fikir ke i kat kerje ke...i busy ke tk...i noe i always call u whenever im free at werk...but im find some time for u at werk too...u noe the way u talk to me like that really makes my mood really down...im really really sad u noe...i da tkde mood nk werk...i da tk tau ape yg i buat...i da tk concentrate da...i tk pernah nk buat prangai bile u werk tau...u ask me why i nvr scold u anything...i tk tegas ngn u psl i respect u...i noe certain parts i need to be loud to u...but in my way...im not like..other ppl will actually shout at the person...i will onli noisy to the person but not shouting...u should noe bby...like u said...1 year plus why i tk marah u...but u should noe kadang2 i bising2 ngn u sampai u ckp ape.."u bising ar..." but why must u say about those gerls...i noe u trying to make me angry rite...and then u said becoz u long time nvr meet me...tk semestinye kite ni da lame tk jumpe u kene buat i mcm ni...i tau i kerje...timing kite tk same...but im really trying my best to have my off day same as u...i feel so sad u see...i really really miss u after we meet just now...please bby...dun make me like this anymore...im really2 down u noe...haiz...boifren please call me once u wake up please...i sent a message at ur phone..its urgent k... will be meeting kak lily to sent ipin to airport at 8.45am tmr morning... may u have a save flight ipin...see u after 7 mths... zylaa sign off
@Friday, June 04, 2010 |
